Saturday, September 26, 2015

nothing more can be expected from ourselves

I just do my best and paint

I am trying to make a living so that I have some place to live
I am doing my best

I am trying to get through a difficult time in my life without stepping on every toe within a 5 mile radius
hide sight is always 20/20
I am doing my best

I am trying to figure out where I fit when everything has been turned upside down
sincerely, I am doing my best

I am trying to be a good mother and grandmother in these times when time is so short
I wish I could do more, I feel guilty  that I cant do more
I can only do my best

I am trying to be true to myself, and loyal to myself and kind to myself

I
will do my best

Saturday, May 23, 2015

memorial memory day

A Moment in Time
 
   Bubbles floating, iridescent
rainbow colors always present
light as air, drifting, drifting
all my burdens lifting, lifting

filtered sounds, muffled murmurs
        in protected perimeters
     definition shading, shading
    communication fading, fading

The further away, the clearer I see
shades, reasons,evidence, seasons
emotions surface, raging, raging
turning point, changing, changing

Robin Dodge
1990

Sunday, May 3, 2015

Going with the Flow



People find their inspiration from as many places as there are people, our fingerprint, so to speak.

When I started the 'Inspire' Project, an independent art history study, it was with the soul purpose? ..
to inspire me to put one foot in front of the other. Something I have done in other seasons of my life.
Karl had died and I was past Black.
Just trying to hold on, it gave me a way to hold on and so much more, and I find myself continuing to discover.
The comfort of The Masters should not be underestimated.



A Purple Iris caught my eye,the spring rain stroking this lush of nature. Royal Purple Velvet, shot through with white.
But when I bent down, I saw the most beautiful shrub, burnt sienna and chartreuse emerging from a long winters' sleep.

I'm house sitting, who could have known I was about to enter a wildlife Sanctuary filled with Peace and tranquility.
I think God has heard my prayers.


The other day I was home for lunch and I heard someone on the roof, While investigating, I found two young artists photographing the mural I painted of Waves on the side of the building  Be Sweet Cupcake Shop because it related to a new business the young guys started,
"Waves Around the World." What a pleasure it was to briefly talk.

As I sit here breathing the fresh, post-rain air, I am looking around at the natural beauty.
It heals the soul.
The harmony is pulling me to it.
Since being here it has given me a new appreciation for landscapes and still life.

The last 13 years have been the hardest, most painful, most fearful,
yet the most rewarding, enlightening and heartbreaking of my life.

Through out this Trudgery, from beginning to present, God has given me strength when I had none,
told me the truth with compassion
and protected me through it all..

I am regaining my will to join the flow of life.

I am in a sort of serendipitous flow. Life is taking me right where I need to be.
Meeting all my needs
Body, mind, soul, spirit, heart and aesthetically
I am grateful for it all and my reaction is to paint and create.